love

is unpredictable

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a d d i c t i v e.
I throw all of your stuff away. I’m gonna clear you out of my head. I tear you out of my heart. And ignore all your messages. I tell everyone we are through. 'Cause I'm so much better without you. But it’s just another pretty lie. 'Cause I break down. Hard as I try I know I can't quit. Something about you is so addictive. We're falling together. you'd think that by now I'd know. cause here we go go go again.

she plans to hand in a letter on friday... excuse letter for NPCC training. she was sick. phyically.having a serious headache, swollen eyes, blocked nose, sore throat and developed rashes. mentally. tortured. ripped off her little confidence that was left in her when she lead the sec 3. she dragged her sicked shell to training on wednesday, onli to be scolded till she cried. none was left. all empty. she's empty inside. she had no more confidence, no more pride, no more passion, no more love. juz hatred. she hates NPCC now. a sudden change of an enthu NPCC girl to a girl that is anti NP. no more passion. onli tiredness. veri tired. she juz feel like giving up. she doesn't noe how to face the unit anymore. when she sees NP, she feels like a crippled. someone unable to lead the unit. maybe she should step down. maybe she juz don't have the kind of leadership and capability at all. she juz sux. she do. she's dry and empty... a new leader should be chosen. maybe she's not fit to be the leading one.

-the highest is actually the lowest, don't think u're a head NCO u can be proud and abuse ur authority.
*did i?
-i'm going to tear all your stupid pride down.
*u did it. i lose my pride as a NCO, a NP cadet, a student, a person. i lose all my pride. none was left.


'~'empty shell'~'