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I throw all of your stuff away. I’m gonna clear you out of my head. I tear you out of my heart. And ignore all your messages. I tell everyone we are through. 'Cause I'm so much better without you. But it’s just another pretty lie. 'Cause I break down. Hard as I try I know I can't quit. Something about you is so addictive. We're falling together. you'd think that by now I'd know. cause here we go go go again.

Had some thoughts after watching the TV programme "trading spouses" today.

As the name of the programme suggests, it's trading his/her spouse for another for a week and experiencing for themselves if really, "the grass is greener over there". For that particular episode which i watched, it's free thinker family 'A' vs strict, devoted christian family 'B'.

For start, the two families had a humongous cultural shock when they discovered that their surrogate mum/wife is a devoted christian/free thinker. They were unable to comprehend their way of thinking and lifestyle as it is totally different from theirs.

For example, surrogate mum 'B' could not understand why the family 'A' have had no religion, and to some extend, tried to pass on her beliefs to them, because "god is good to us and we want to share good things to others".Thus, she planned for a little devotional reading, but perhaps she was to eager to improve things for the better, the plan backfired and sent the family 'A' 's little boy crying. The little boy was not acceptance of her. Yet, after some little talks and much effort, the little boy opened his heart to surrogate mum 'B'. He accepted her and even agreed to do a little devotional reading.

On the other hand, surrogate mum 'A' had a shocked when she discovered that the girls of family 'B' had to go for bible studies. Well. she drove the girls there and even attended the session with them, just that she couldn't understand the purpose behind it. She kept silent, as she believed that everyone had their own choices and faith. However, family 'B's grandma came visiting and when she discovered that surrogate mum 'A' isn't a christian, she wasn't very pleased and she said, " but why didn't you have a religion? Having a faith/belief is good." She responded by saying she's a free thinker and if's there's a god she has to believe, its buddha. After the meeting, grandma 'B' actually planned for a bible studies session with her. During the session, there was one thing that she said to her that etched my mind, " god don't sent people to hell, you sent yourself burning there". (I do agree as i believe all gods, jesus or not, are compassionate and belovant and they would punish us only if we did really immortal things.) Well, surrogate mum 'A' isn't comfortable on hearing that. But she didn't argue as she knew it to be useless. Anyway, she did had a great interacting with the family as the dad was cool and the girls were so sweet.

I could actually relate the show to life. I mean I'm a borned Taoist/Buddhist and I'm happy with it but i can understand why surrogate mum 'B' wanted to share her faith. "god is good to us and we want to share good things to others". They have had good intentions when they want to pass the faith. but really, in my opinion, they shouldn't spread it in such a way that makes non-christains feel uncomfortable. If a person wants to be a christian, he/she will be and no one can influence them. So if a person wants to be a Taoist/Buddhist/Hindi/Muslim/free thinker/whatever, just let them be . I believe they are capable of making their own judgement and have their own beliefs and be responsible for themselves.

I remembered there used to be a time in Singapore, perhaps 6 or 7 years ago, when Christians/catholics would come knocking on the door, giving brochures, and encouraging people to join their church. My mum (well, i think it's the same for my whole family, oops!) was quite annoyed at that time (she is a devoted Taoist/Buddhist) and would often close our doors and not respond to them. (we didn't bang our doors or anything,k? we closed it softly and normally. we cared for their feelings and our door. lol) They wanted to spread their faith but we preferred sticking to ours. My family used to say, "Taoist/Buddhist/Hindus/Muslims must have more devotees/followers, that's why they don't need to do 'door-to-door' sales/advertisements." It's a joke really, no offence.

Anyways, that's not my main point. The thing is, i discovered the 'spreading faith/sharing good' thing is everywhere. Last year, when i went to South Korea, i could see people spreading the faith in shopping malls and parade squares. My uncle, who lives in Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia have had the same experience too. One day, the Christians came knocking on his door (my uncle's a Taoist), wanting to spread the faith. He opened the door and after he knew of their (good)intentions, he said to them," I know you're spreading your faith and i respect your religion. However, I'm a Taoist and i believe you too will respect my religion. How about that? You can come into my house to have a drink and spread the faith if you agree to pray/kowtow to the deities sitting on the alter of my living room. Fair enough? It's respect to both religion." I guess you would know the outcome of the story.

But talking about the issue of hell, i also have some things to share. When i was young as a child, i used to ponder over the question "Is there really hell and is there really ghost in the world?" and i would think of the question while standing beside the window (i stayed at the 11th storey). The next question that would then come to my mind is "how about i experience it for myself? If i jump down, i would be able to know if there's ghost in the world. But wait, what will happen if i really turn into a ghost? nothing, i suppose." and then i would stop thinking about that question and off to the TV or HW. But i would always had that question on my mind when i passed by the windows. I was really curious.

Is that suicide thought? I guess so. But not because i was stressed/ deprived of love at that point of time. i was just.. curious. Luckily i didn't really jump to see if there's really ghost in the world. pleaseee... can't blame me. i was only primary one/two that time... I told my sis recently about my strange thinkings as a child, they laughed at me for a while. They said no wonder i had such a huge and high forehead --- i had too much nonsensical things inside it.

Really. Can't blame me for letting my thoughts run wild. It's also a form of creativity, okie??


*If i offended anyone by writing this post and expressing my views. I apologise. It is of no intention if i hurt/insulted anybody/organisation in the process. Just my own views.